[ He makes a bit of a face at that fussing. Gosh, the only one who does that is his aunt. And ... now his dad. It takes him a moment to talk past the lump in his throat caused by that particular thought. ]
I - sometimes it doesn't feel like that. Before Tadashi got me to join SFIT - when Crane had me -
[ Maybe the latter really isn't his fault, but that first one? 100% pure brat kid behavior, he's sure of it. Maybe this other Hiro had a wild side too, but he's sure it didn't involve getting his brother thrown in jail. Or any other family members. ]
As I said before, Hiro: I love you for who you are. And every mistake you made and learned from is a part of that, stepping stones on the journey to the you man you are, and the man you may be someday.
You mustn't define yourself by who you used to be, but who you choose to be going forward.
[ Baymax... Tomeo remembers that eye rub well. He slips the glasses off his own face, gently placing them on Hiro's nose -- fitting him perfectly, despite all real world logic. After all, those rules don't apply here. ]
[ Glasses. Right. It feels strange to wear them, even if they do fit perfectly. And they match his prescription too .... He always meant to go back to the eye doctor to actually get himself something decent. ]
[ At the word dad, there's a hitch in Baymax's breath and he feels a stinging in his eyes. When the tickle of something wet rolls down his face, he dabs at the spot with his fingertips before staring at them in bewilderment. ]
I will never regret being their for Hiro when he needs me, no matter what form I take. However...
[ There's a pause, and a wince. Tears are still quietly rolling down your face. ]
You become accustomed to some of the things you can't do anymore. Taste and smell, stretch, sleep... when your body ceases to crave them, they lose their appeal. Other things...
[ He finally lets go of Hiro, shrinking away, genuine sorrow on his face for the first time in years. ]
At first I felt it was too soon after Tomeo's death. Then I was waiting until I felt she would respond well to my new form. The weeks became months, months became years...
Perhaps I'm simply too cowardly to face her like this.
I don't want this to become public knowledge, Hiro, but I understand that your family here extends beyond those related by blood. If there's someone you feel needs to know about... me, someone who deserves to be in on the secret, you have my permission to tell them.
[ He nods at that, thinking for a moment. He'll wait for Tadashi, but there's Aunt Cass too ... Tomeo is her brother-in-law, after all. Whether this version knows his aunt or not. As for anyone else ... he's still a little too awed by the revelation to think of too many. After he's settled there'll be one in particular... ]
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Date: 2015-09-03 11:49 pm (UTC)I - sometimes it doesn't feel like that. Before Tadashi got me to join SFIT - when Crane had me -
[ Maybe the latter really isn't his fault, but that first one? 100% pure brat kid behavior, he's sure of it. Maybe this other Hiro had a wild side too, but he's sure it didn't involve getting his brother thrown in jail. Or any other family members. ]
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Date: 2015-09-04 12:35 am (UTC)Those things in your past weighing down on your conscience --
--would you do them again?
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Date: 2015-09-04 12:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-04 12:49 am (UTC)What more could anyone ask of you?
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Date: 2015-09-04 12:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-04 01:01 am (UTC)You mustn't define yourself by who you used to be, but who you choose to be going forward.
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Date: 2015-09-04 01:02 am (UTC)I can try.
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Date: 2015-09-04 01:11 am (UTC)And I can help.
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Date: 2015-09-04 01:13 am (UTC)Then ... I guess we'll work on it together, Dad.
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Date: 2015-09-04 01:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-04 01:57 am (UTC)Been a while?
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Date: 2015-09-04 02:04 am (UTC)A long, long while.
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Date: 2015-09-04 02:05 am (UTC)[ Gosh, that makes his heart ache a little more. ]
Do you ever regret it? Being like this?
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Date: 2015-09-04 02:28 am (UTC)[ There's a pause, and a wince. Tears are still quietly rolling down your face. ]
You become accustomed to some of the things you can't do anymore. Taste and smell, stretch, sleep... when your body ceases to crave them, they lose their appeal. Other things...
[ He finally lets go of Hiro, shrinking away, genuine sorrow on his face for the first time in years. ]
My wife doesn't know.
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Date: 2015-09-04 02:30 am (UTC)You can't tell her?
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Date: 2015-09-04 02:36 am (UTC)[ He bows his head. ]
At first I felt it was too soon after Tomeo's death. Then I was waiting until I felt she would respond well to my new form. The weeks became months, months became years...
Perhaps I'm simply too cowardly to face her like this.
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Date: 2015-09-04 02:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-04 02:51 am (UTC)[ He looks up, offering Hiro a sad smile. ]
We all have things we regret, Hiro. Perhaps one day, if I'm ever to return home, I'll find the courage to do as you suggest.
Until then, however, I'm grateful for what I do have.
[ He runs a hand through Hiro's hair once more. ]
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Date: 2015-09-04 02:52 am (UTC)Three sons now. Two Hiros and a Tadashi.
[ He jolts at that, a sudden realization overtaking him. ]
-- You have to tell him. He - he remembers our version of you.
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Date: 2015-09-04 02:57 am (UTC)[ Baymax nods in agreement. ]
We do. I only ask that we tell him together.
I don't want this to become public knowledge, Hiro, but I understand that your family here extends beyond those related by blood. If there's someone you feel needs to know about... me, someone who deserves to be in on the secret, you have my permission to tell them.
I trust your judgment.
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Date: 2015-09-04 03:01 am (UTC)Aunt Cass too.
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Date: 2015-09-04 03:12 am (UTC)I won't make the same mistake I made back home, Hiro. I promise.
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Date: 2015-09-04 03:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-04 04:41 am (UTC)Yes. We are.
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Date: 2015-09-04 10:27 am (UTC)Didn't think I'd get more here...